Make A List
I’m great at making lists, and better at disregarding them. I love the idea of lists- orderly, concise, full of promise. Lists are great ways to outline an afternoon, a season, a life. They’re super-helpful when marketing, and can calm a chaotic mind. The issue with lists, for many of us, is in the application, not the intention.
I’m not sure what makes it so difficult to see a list to fruition. Perhaps I’m not writing them in the right place. Out of sight, out of mind! Or maybe my expectations are too high. Or low. Or maybe I just don’t like being told what to do! For a while, I thought of giving up on lists. It was making me feel bad to see them around the house, with only one or two things crossed off. Reminders of what to-do morphed into documentation of shortcomings.
A few weeks ago, I decided to give lists another go. I don’t have any new tricks to try in list-making-and-following, rather, I have a new attitude about myself. I’ve been reading a book about self-compassion, and learning how to support and care for myself. These new tools have me more willing to try new things, and to keep plugging away at the old things.
I’m going to keep making lists. I’m going to keep disregarding them too! What’s changed here so far isn’t how I *do* lists, rather, how I *do* me. When I see lists lying about with only one thing crossed out, I’m going to speak kindly of myself. “Look how I keep trying. I’m very good at keeping-trying.” And isn’t that what we all really need? To not revel in disappointment, but to see our efforts alone as courageous choices? Yes, I think so. Let’s keep on keepin on. Let’s fall on our faces and help ourselves up. Let’s do this day after day, resting in the knowledge that we are the ones who Just.Won’t.Quit. Our stacks of unmet to-do lists prove it!
Welcome to December! I’ll be writing daily this month, using Write Alm’s prompts, located here-http://writealm.com/december-prompt-a-day/