Showing Up- Relationship Intention
I’ve been pondering my relationships. Am I showing up? Am I sharing with those who share with me? Not really. It’s something I’m going to start trying, though. With the pattern being lopsided relationships causing exhaustion, then withdrawal, I have to turn to my own behavior. Is there a reason I don’t reach out when I really need help? Of course! There are so many reasons. There are past hurts, and the fear of repeated pain. There is shame, and the feeling that no one could handle my true vulnerability. Pain, fear, and shame. Am I really going to allow these three feelings to dictate my behavior?
I saw this quote yesterday, “Examine what you tolerate.” I am not going to tolerate a fear-driven life. I am going to choose a brave life. I am going to choose it everyday by showing up in my relationships, saying how I feel, and asking for help when I need it. To be vulnerable is an act of courage. Take heart.