February Feelings – Envious
Each day this month I’m drawing a GROK card, taking a quick photo, then writing about the feeling. Today I drew a doozy!
Today’s feeling is Envious.
The dictionary defines envy as a desire to have what someone else has, or a feeling of discontent with regard to another’s advantages, success, possessions, etc.
I feel envy like a fist in the stomach, and a furrowed brow. A problem with feeling envious is how we heap judgement atop it at the first twinge. We shout at this feeling and slap it aside. “You shouldn’t feel envious! Grow up! Be grateful for what you have! If you want better, then be better!”
I don’t know about you, but being bullied by my own mind isn’t motivating, or helpful. Extensive research backs that up.
The truth is, feeling envious is born of deep lack, or a perception of scarcity. We face hardships and our unmet needs build up. Envy is uncomfortable to feel, and we often can’t bear for it to stick around long enough for curiosity and healing. Here’s what I’m going to do the next time I feel envious. With a hand on my heart, I’ll replace judgment with these words-
I notice I’m feeling envious. This is uncomfortable. I’ll hold space for myself while this feeling visits.
Thank you for reading my posts about feelings. I hope you find them helpful. It’s nice spending time here every day. <3