February Feelings – Reluctant
Another day, another GROK card drawn. 28 days in February and I intend to write about feelings for all of them? Maybe this was a mistake! I’m worried you’re bored. I’m worried this is silly. I’m worried I’m a kid amongst wise bloggers and you should probably just head over to their sites. Oh my! As I begin this post, just 6 days into February, I embody today’s feeling…
The dictionary defines Reluctant as feeling aversion, hesitation, or unwillingness. Reluctance is showing up in my body today like fingers hovering over keys, or one finger held on DELETE. I have pursed lips and words stuck in my throat.
My reluctance today is based in self-doubt, but I’ve also felt it when invited to social events, or when I’m comfortable on the couch, but chores are calling.
When we experience reluctance, it’s tempting to skip over the emotion, and kick ourselves into gear. Power through! Get it done! But the truth is, there may be valid worries and unmet needs behind our reluctance, and to get to those, we must first let ourselves feel.
When we notice our reluctance, let’s try pausing before we move or respond. In that space, we can listen for our needs. Here’s a waiting mantra-
I’m feeling reluctant. How curious. Let me pause right here awhile, with an open mind.
Thanks for visiting today to read about another feeling! I write for you and I write for me. I love learning about emotions, and how to move in them safely and compassionately, and it thrills me when my words resonate with others. <3